This might very well be one long, immature rant, so for those who have zero patience for this yap-fest, I'll state the most important news upfront:

As of now,Reborn as Papa Silva(RPS) is going on an indefinite hiatus. What that means or entails—well, you'll have to read on to find out.

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Now... where to start...

First and foremost, I should say I'mtired.

Physically, emotionally,spirituallytired.

Five months, 105 Chapters, and around 670K words—and nothing to show for it—has drained me.

I really regret taking some moral high ground and not opening a Patreon. Maybe if I had profited off this,even just a little, I'd feel differently. But at the same time, I'm glad I didn't.

Because if I had, if I'd accepted your money, this hobby would've become a job—one I'd feelmorally obligatedto continue, even when the passion came and went.

And I suppose that was the ongoing theme of this work.

My passion—it came and went.

Sometimes I lost all interest while my readers wanted more. Sometimes I wassoinvested while my readers were sick of it. And sometimes, both me and my readers were losing interest.

There were times Ilovedthis series. There were times even writing asingle paragraphfelt like running a marathon.

When this series first started, it was pure discovery writing—taking it one Chapter at a time—until, for some reason, it became a hit on WebNovel. So I tried to put more effort into it.

Switching to third-person POV. Reducing the AI. Stopping for a second tothinkabout where I was going with it.

Unfortunately, by the time we reached the Secret Order ambush, it was clear to most that I was running out of ideas.

After the Sebastian vs. Mereoleona fistfight, I took a ten-day hiatus to focus on my finals. And for some reason, as I did, inspiration kept coming to me—one idea after another—until I was able to plot the story from that point to the end of the Dream Arc.

And Iquiteliked it.

I'm proud of it.

From Chapter 43 to 84, I feel like I was at my best.

The subtle foreshadowing, the overarching arc, the OCs and their development—showing Sebastian and Acier's relationship not just assome fact on paperbut as somethingformedandgrownover time—making people attached to it, making themhateLucius even more.

Ilovedthe Dream Arc. Most of my passion for this project went into that arc.

So, surprisingly, it didn't bug me when people asked me to drop it and move on.

I wasdeterminedto finish it. And I'm glad I did.

Those last couple of Chapters—fromThe UnlovetoThe End—made meemotional.

EspeciallyThe DeathandLetting Go, Part 1.My eyes reddened. Teared up a little.

Because by then, I wasinvestedin Sebastian and Acier's relationship. Watching them fall apart—even thoughIwrote it—fucked me up a bit.

Nathaniel's death hit me like a truck. Not once did I expect to get so attached to an OC.

And speaking of OCs—or characters in general—their relationships, their interactions...Thathas been my greatest strength in this work.

And what I'm most proud of.

People cried for Nathaniel.

People respected Alden and Vardy.

PeoplehatedLux's guts.

People went from thinking Nicklaus was good—veryearly on—to despising his very essence.

People begrudgingly tolerated Amara.

People went from dismissing Aurelia along with her mother tolovingher.

People respected Florian, Ignatius, and Amber.

People areconflictedon Alfred.

People areconflictedon Acier.

People went from not caring about the OG Sebastian to loving him just as much as Earth Sebastian—perhaps even more.

Some told me I made them hate Luciusmorethan they did in the original work.

Some told me they were impressed that I made Augustus, Damnatio, and Solidlikable.

Some were impressed by how I fleshed out Dorothy's background—andZara's.

I made these charactersmatterto you.

The ones meant to be hatedwerehated.

The ones meant to be lovedwereloved.

The ones meant to leave usconflicteddid just that.

And that makes me proud.

This work isn't afailure—but as aBlack Cloverfanfic, it certainly is.

In my decision to not write a canon rehash—my complete dislike for such works—I lost thespiritof the very story it's based on.

This is no longerjustaBlack Cloverfanfic. Someloveit for that. Some find itunbearablefor that.

Maybe I regretted writing a fanfic in the first place. But without the world and lore ofBlack Cloverto start with, I wouldn't have been able to write somethingthisgood.

I once tried to write my own story—two or three years ago—but dropped it in the prologue because my writing skills wereabysmal.I've improved a lot since then. Or at least, I'd like to think so.

So maybe—just maybe—I'll give it a second chance.

I don't know what I'll do from now on. It'sfinals season.I have exams to study for. Projects to work on.

Maybe I'll go back and rewrite Chapters 1–13.

Maybe I'll continue with the alternative story.

Maybe I'll explore the other routes or timelines of this series in the extra stories.

I'lldefinitelysee the Astelle Prompts through to the end—just as I did this volume. Even when I felt like dropping itsomany times.

If I never come back to this story, I'll leave some ideas for how it could go here:

Volume 2 would beSamyaza'svolume, with him as the main antagonist.

Clover would be tasked with dealing with him—alongside Dante, Zenon, Heart, Diamond, the Witch's Forest, the elves, and Zagred—for added chaos.

The story would span about five years in-universe, taking a heavy toll on many, witha lotof losses.

There would beunexpectedheroes in Richita and Augustus.

Some of the main matchups would be:

Julius, Conrad, and Acier vs. Samyaza

Draven vs. Samyaza

Sebastian vs. Samyaza

Dorothy, Nozel, Fuegoleon, Morgen, Nacht, Yami, Gueldre, Jack, Damnatio, Charlotte, and William vs. Isolde

Mereoleona, Ignatius, Kaiser, Lovilia, Ellenor, Augustus, and Aga vs. Edelstein

Aga vs. Edelstein

Mereoleona vs. Edelstein

Sebastian and a certain revived Wizard Queen vs. Edelstein

Sebastian vs. Witch Queen

Draven and Lillith vs. Zenon

Ciel and Loyce vs. Dante

Licht and Lemiel vs. Zagred

Sawyer vs.Heaven

The volume would trace Samyaza's influence on this world—stretching back over two millennia.

It would cover how he broughtmagicinto this world, his history with the elves, and how he bestowed theHeavenly Arcanaupon their first leader—Solomon, just like inSolomoniclore from Judaism.

It would explore how the elves became connected to theSefirotand became its apostles, while also diving into its inverse—theQlippoth.

The elves, in a way, would parallel the Jewish people—chosenand beloved by mana (God's chosen), only to be abandoned, persecuted, and nearly wiped out.

The story would also expand on Leviathan—his history with Samyaza and his children (Nephilim), as referenced in theBook of Giants.

It would delve into Samyaza's relationship withMetatron—and why hehateshim so much—drawing from theBook of Enoch.

Volume Threewould focus on theprogress of civilization—introducing magic schools and institutions, ushering in an era of development and research aimed at breaking away from grimoires and the current magical systems.

Instead of gaining spellsthroughtheir grimoires, people would learn todesignandinventspells throughTrap Magic—slowly creating spells thatanyonecould use.

By masteringKiandZetten—the control of their inner lifeforce—they would no longerneedgrimoires to access their magic fully.

With the addition ofMana Method, True Magic, Ultimate Magic, Mana Zone,andMagical Tools, humanity would becomelessdependent on external systems andmorereliant on themselves.

Volume Fourwould deal with theThree Beasts of Revelationand other creatures, such asBehemoth, while also uncovering the past ofSaint Luminous.

Volume Fivewould follow humanity'sinvasionof theUnderworldthrough theShadow Palace—wiping out the devilslevel by levelor bringing them under control.

This would primarily beLucifero'sandBeelzebub'sstory—expanding on how they rebelled againstGod's planfor humanity andfell from grace.

It would also introduceAstarothand explore hisuniqueorigins compared to the other two Dukes of Hell.

This is whereLuciuswould finally reveal histrueidentity—casting off his disguise asJulius, stealingLucifero's heart, and disappearing into hiding

Volume Sixwould explore several otherpantheons, such as theGreek/Roman, Norse, andEgyptianmythologies.

Volume Sevenwould be aHino Arc, delving into the land's connection toHell, theFive-Headed Dragon, thePriestess,Shinto,Buddhism, and the origins of theTengetsu.

Volume 8would be thefinaldivine war againstHeaven.

The main matchups would be:

Michael vs. Everybody

Seraphiel vs. Metatron

Michael vs. Metatron

Second Wizard King vs. Metatron

Second Wizard King vs. Michael

Lucius vs. Michael

Sebastian and Acier vs. Azrael

Yuno and Asta vs. Gabriel and Uriel

Noelle, Dorothy, Nozel, Yami, and Mereoleona vs. Raphael

Damnatio, Fuegoleon, and William vs. Raguel

Yami and Ichika vs. Remiel

Licht and Lemiel vs. Sariel

Edward vs. Zadkiel

Conrad vs. Cassiel

Princia vs. Jophiel

Terran vs. Sahaquiel

Alden vs. Eistibus

Jester vs. Raziel

Jack vs. Simikiel

Charlotte, William, and Rill vs. Zachriel

Nacht and Morgen vs. Leliel

Other Wizard Kings, the Ryuzen Seven, Spirit Guardians, Leopold, Lolopechka, Langris, and more vs. the rest of the Divine Army

Asta, Yuno, and Michael vs. Metatron

Everyone vs. Metatron

Sebastian and Acier vs. Lucius

This arc wouldprovethat humanity was capable ofeverythingHeaven could do—though throughmuchlonger and more complex methods.

It would be a battle forhumanity's worth—their independence from Heaven and the Divine.

And it would culminate in humanity finally being seen asequalsin their eyes—just asThat Onefinallyawakens.

Through all eight volumes, there would bemanylove stories—some ending well, others not. Families made and destroyed. Friends turned family. Family turned enemies. Enemies turned friends. And more.

We would explore theimportanceof the Primordial World and other key plot points.

Whether I ever write this or not... who knows?

Maybe I'm done with fanfiction after theAstelle Prompts.

Maybe I'll write somethingcompletelydifferent—like a certainBlack Clover x Fairy Tailfanfic I can't bring myself to start because it'ssodark.

Everyonedies.

Like,seriously,pretty mucheveryone—Happy, Natsu, Lucy, Makarov, Fuegoleon, Mereoleona, Yuno, Yami,etc.And deaths on that scale would eventually make peoplenumbto it, stripping away its emotional weight.

But that's a topic for another time.

Right now, I need to focus onschoolandwork.

Till next time—if thereisa next time.

Sincerely, HMak

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